CRAZINESS (At the Higest level)

I feel this is the craziest and most emotional my life has been thus far. Maybe that is an exaggeration and maybe it is not. I know each time you go through something you slowly forget all the emotions and hardships of the storm in life but this one just seems like it went from crazy to extreme crazy.

There is a lot taking place in our lives right now. I feel each day is already jam packed before I wake up in the morning with little room to add anything else that wants to pop up. And when new things do pop up (recently) I have been throwing tantrums or crying. I don't know if it is just emotions at their rawest or what.

But as God has warned me this past weekend don't get distracted. Yes for sure there is a lot going on and there is a lot more heading our way but the enemy's job is to distract and if I get distracted with overwhelmedness (think i made that word up) and what not then I will either just sit down and not move because of feeling like I can't accomplish any thing or I will start focusing to much on self to pay attention to all that God is trying to do outside of me.

So what does our schedule look like.
Supplying Needs: Daily we are sending out letters for donations requests, calling companies to follow up with those letters, picking up food, sending out Thanks yous and doing it all over again. Joel blessed me by saying yes to a new Database for Supplying Needs. This year we have started asking other companies beside food companies and so Excel is no longer sufficient for keeping record of of companies. And I got just the one I wanted which tickles me to no end. So on top of everything else I listed I am filling out our new datebase with wonderful information. And in a month we will be filing out our yearly report for the IRS. Oh my goodness my head is spinning just with things we need to do for SN.
God has also made it clear this past month that we will be doing Disaster Response. So as of now we are collecting items needed to respond to a natural disaster in the state of California.

Then there is church. God has asked us to be heavily involved with the church we attend. Again God said it is all to prepare us for SN in the future when we have crew. With all that we do at our church it is training us to be better leaders. So with this training comes lots of responsibility. I am taking classes at church once a week, we do Adopt-a-Block which is under our church but SN is also heavily involved with this ministry with needs of the people, I am going to be getting my license from the church, and now I have started a jewelry class every Saturday night.

I just feel there is no time for much else these days. And as God has made it clear it is not going to slow down for a while but get even more crazy. I keep reminding myself of the verse in the bible. God doesn't give you more than you can handle but I keep wondering if he pushes us to the max of the max of our limits where it feels at times we can't handle it. I don't know. Shrug shrug.

And on top of all of this we are picking up my baby girl Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday from school and helping her with homework. It has brought me so much joy to be involved in her life. I am learning a lot from her. If I ever have kids of my own God has used Amiyah to make me a better parent than i would have ever been if not for her.

So that is our life. So hectic. I think I will appreciate it more when a season of quietness and less to do comes back around instead of thinking it is such a nuisance. But I know I will be thanking God even more later when i see all that He was doing during this time to teach and train us to be better for His Kingdom and leading people to a life with Him. What an honor and Joy to serve our God with all your heart mind soul and strength and leave nothing on the table but it all has been used for Him and His will for your life.

To God be The Glory,
the Butlers

God & His Provision for A Family!

There is a family we know that lost everything in the fall due to a fire that was above their apartment which caused water damage to their place and they lost everything. The word went out and God provided furniture, food, and other items they needed to help get them back on their feet. The day we delivered the items we were in their house after we had loaded them up, we all got in a circle and prayed that God would bless the family. When Joel was praying the Lord spoke and said "Adopt this family" I was excited.

A company who wants to remain anonymous helped us last year with adopting a family for Christmas that was in need. They wanted to do it again this year. So when God spoke clearly to me I told the company of this family. I got the families information and told them they were going to be adopted by a group of us. The family was excited. When I sent the information to the company they let me know they could not adopt this family because of certain requirements. I did not know about the requirements because the year before with out knowing it I had found a family that had met all the requirements. They asked me to find another family that met all the requirements. I understood and found another family for them but it left us in a bind. For months I wondered if I had really heard from God or if I was crazy. I knew Joel and I couldn't afford to get this family a good Christmas.

I put it off hoping that by Christmas something would come through. But as time ticked down nothing came in. This past week Joel and I went shopping for our family at the Galt Flee Market and got gifts for our family and the family that had the fire. It wasn't much. About 2 gifts for each person but it wasn't anything they need. We really couldn't afford to get them anything they needed.

We were wrapping all the gifts on Wednesday night when a friend of mine called. We talked for a while but then I told her I had get off the phone to wrap gifts. Because she is one of my closest friends I confided in her my concerns and worry and how I felt I was left to face the family and have to tell them the situation. I had not told anyone about it only Joel and I knew. I don't know why I told her I usually keep these things to myself but God knew.

She said her company she works for usually adopts families for Christmas but has not in the past few years and if I would send her the information she would see if they would adopt this family.

Well all Glory belongs to God because she called me the next day and said the company would adopt and go shopping for the family and spend 1,000 dollars on this family.

I can't tell you the relief. 1) Because this family was going to have the most beautiful Christmas and 2) I am not Crazy LOL :D

God is so awesome and takes care of our needs and wants. Once again it has increased my faith and trust in my God.

Through this I have seen my limitations. That if it were only Joel and I getting something for the family it amounted to a small box of a few items for this family and none of their needs were met. But when God stepped in and did what He does best the family is taken care of above and beyond anything I could hope or imagine.

God is amazing. My life is so much better because of Him. He truly takes care of all things. So how about you. Why don't you let Jesus in your heart and life and see the awesome things He can do.

HE WILL BLOW YOUR MIND. :D

All Jesus's!

Dess

God's Design

So Lately the Lord has been teaching/dealing with me about how He set up our lives. He first started talking to me about how Joel is to take care of me until Jesus's return. That Joel is only my husband temporarily to cherish, love and keep me safe. That Jesus is my husband and will come back for me but until then God has put Joel over me until Jesus comes back.

Then today as I was at church watching Amiyah dance her heart out for Jesus, God started to show me how he set up the family. That the Dad and Mom are supposed to show the children how a husband and wife should act first by their example and then by their instructions. The mom should show and tell the daughters how to treat their husband with respect and submission. How to be and act like a lady. The Father should treasure the daughter so that she feels loved and like a beautiful treasure so she does not go looking for worth in the wrong places. And so that when a man comes that would treat her less than she should be treated the daughter would be able to recognize it and walk away from it. Both roles are important.

Same with a son the Father is to show and instruct how to be a good husband and to love the wife and treat her with love and like a treasure. The Mother is to teach the son how to treat women and how to respect them by speaking kind to them, opening the door, etc.

So it goes in order from being taught at a young age how you should treat your spouse, to treating your spouse, to going to Jesus. That each step is important. For Children are a gift from God and are God's to begin with and marriage is a gift and the spouse is promised to Jesus when He returns and that we are all on loan until Jesus comes and gets us.

So as God was showing me about the Mother teaching the daughter how to act like a lady God then told me He wanted me to take Amiyah out on a Ladies night, to pour into her and love her. To instruct her how to act as a Lady and to show love to her. To teach her how a man should treat her and If he doesn't then she needs to say DUECES. That the one she wants to marry needs to love God first and foremost because she will be loved like she should.

So Amiyah and I dressed up like beautiful Ladies and went to the Olive Garden. It was wonderful night. We had fun like only we can.

Thank you God for what you are teaching me. May I apply it to all that you allow me to encounter on this level.

All yours Daddy,

Dess

Free Toy Give Away Account

My God blew the roof off of the event. Lets start at the beginning shall we. So August 8 at 4 in the morning God showed me the free toy give away. I saw all these toys being given to tons of kids. I was so excited and said "Let's do it in December for the Christmas holiday"

God said "I don't want it around a holiday"

I said "November"

God "NO"

Me " October"

God "No"

Me "Not September Daddy anything but September"

God "September 9th"

I started to beg and plead with God in such a way i had never pleaded before that I thought He was for sure going to change his mind. After I was done groveling and pleading God said "I want to get all the Glory"

In which I replied "Oh you will if we do it in December you will, All the glory I won't get any as well as any one else. I promise Daddy you will get all the glory." Needless to say He never budged. So September 9th it was.

I went about doing what had to be done to get the event. Since it was going to be at our Church Victory in Praise I had to fill out an event form which is supposed to be filled out 90 days before the event. Yeah I only gave them 30 days. And I asked our Bishop as well since it was such a big event and there were other events planned around this time. To my great surprise I got approval from both sources. A few days after everything was rolling one of our good friends at the church said "Dess do you have any toys" In which I replied "No" Then he asked "Do you have any raffle prizes" In which I again replied "NO" He laughed and said "Oh that's faith" I said to myself "No that is just obedience I don't really have a choice at this point. I just want to obey God"A week after everything was rolling I got up in the morning to spend time with God and said "God we don't have any toys, not one. I know you said to do this event but I am so nervous and don't' know what to do. Supplying Needs has never received much Toys I don't have a toy contact." My God was so caring and said to me "Dess it is going to be like the feeding of the 5,000 with 2 fish and 5 loaves. You will have enough for everyone and there will be left overs." Just to give an understanding Jesus was teaching 5,000 men plus women and children. THey had no food so he took a boys lunch of 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread and was able to feed all those people plus they had 12 baskets of food left over. So i understood that God was going to supply all we needed for this event plus we would have left overs.The same day God had told me about the "leftovers" A man that allows Supplying Needs to keep our truck in his warehouse parking lot called and said that his family had just moved and was going to have a garage sale but didn't have enough time. if we could come and get all the items they were going to sell. Joel went and picked it up that day and to our great surprise 15 of the 19 boxes were kids, clothes, books, movies, and toys. Our friend didn't even know God told us to have a free toy give away. We were so excited.

The next week we had a load of food donated to Supplying Needs and God put a group on my heart to give to. When we got to their property they were so grateful and thanked us because their pantry was almost empty. Then it popped in my head that they receive toy donations as well. So I asked them if they had any toys they could help us out with for the event. Again to my great surprise they said they never keep the toys they get but give them all to other groups or something like that. They gave us a few bags full of nice toys and said they would hold toys just for us for the event. We received 2 more bus loads full of toys from them through out the month.

We had donations coming from the north, south, east and west. It was amazing. My dear friend Diahanna said we could keep toys in her empty garage that she had just cleaned out because our Bishop had preached a message about cleaning out your space because God is going to do something. So she had just cleaned out her whole garage. So we would bring the donated toys to our garage and go through them then take them to Diahanna's garage to store. Our garage would get so full of toys that we could not put any more in so we would take them over and by the next day if not that same day we would get more toys from other sources and our garage would be full again. It was so amazing to see God work.

Also my hearts desire was to have free raffle prizes for the kids. Bikes of all things. We advertised that we needed bikes but not one came it. So a week and a half before the event I was talking to God and told him that if He wanted us to have bikes than please provide but if not I was going to be fine with it. Well a few days later in the mail I get a package from my dear friend in LA. We email back and forth telling each other what God is doing in our lives. I had mentioned that God asked me to do a Free Toy Give-AWAY but that is all I really said. In the package was a card that said use this money for what ever you need for your event and in it was a check for 1,500 dollars. Can you believe it. I asked God what to do with it and he said it was for my bikes that I had been wanting. i said oh that is wonderful and i can buy a few more things we need for the event as well God said No it is for bikes only.

So we went the day before the event and bought 19 brand new bikes for $1,500.82. Isn't God just so awesome.

So the day of the event we were setting up. All the games, movies, clothes, and books and some toys. We had all the tables up and chairs and everything was in place. then it started to rain. And rain and then thunder and lightening close to us. People were freaking out. I was even freaking out because we had weather issues the last time God told me to do an event. But after praying and talking to God and God saying JUST TRUST ME we just went about what we were doing. And about 15 minutes before the event officially started it had stopped raining where we were at and was sunny and hot. But through the event you could see a wall of rain all around us on all four sides as well as lightening. God likes to show off I believe (In a good way of course) People came out we had about 180 people for the event church members and people we had never seen before.

People would come on to the property and immediately receive one raffle ticket for the bike give away. Then they could look through clothes, or go get movies, books, and games. There was a table for balloon animals, face painting, and helium balloons. There were 6 tables set up for arts and crafts for parents and kids. I even saw some painting piggy banks. It was amazing. Then at 7:30 all the tables shut down to do 3 skits for everyone that were so hilarious and told about Jesus's love for us. Right after the skits we asked if any one wanted Jesus as their Lord and savior or prayer. 5-7 families came up. By that time it was dark and we had not planned for that. We had no light. So the Safeway that we share a parking lot with had their lights. So after prayer we did the free raffle for the 19 bikes. And everyone was loving it, parents and kids, adults and youth. They were reading their ticket from their cell phone light or the safeway light. And not one person left because it was dark!!! There were so many stories of kids needing bikes to get to school or a family just had 4 bikes stolen from them a little bit ago and they received 2 bikes that night. A little girl I know loves princesses and got a princess bike. And another little girl won a bike and would not get off of it. Even when it was time for every child to receive a toy she just sat on her bike NOT moving and didn't want to get off not matter how much the mom tried and some of our members tried she loved her new bike so much.

So after the raffle we had two lines. 2 mini buses were packed with toys with tables in front to put some of the toys. And the kids each received at least one toy. A person came up to me and said "Okay Dess all the kids have received a toy can we tell them to come back and get as much as they want" so that is what I did I got on the mic and said just that and you could see kids running to get back in line. I even saw a family that was almost to their car turn back around to get more toys. It was amazing.

and Guess what we still had toys left over. Just like God promised. It was a night I will never forget. My God took care of everything from toys, to books, to bikes, to the help we needed.

And this same God who takes care of me can supplying all your needs according to His glorious riches which have been given to us in Christ Jesus -Phillipians 4:19

I know I missed a ton of stories and if you would like to comment and add a story of what you saw God do you are more than welcome. Or just comment even if you don't have a story either way God deserves all the credit for the awesome event He put on through us VICTORY IN PRAISE CHURCH!!! Thank you to all who came out and was God's hands and feet. God used you in a mighty way and I am so blessed you were able to do what you did selflessly!!! thank you all.

and Thank you My Daddy!!!

God Blows My Mind

Well Yesterday we recieved about 20 boxes from the man that is allowing us to keep our truck in his warehouse yard for free. He and his wife moved and were going to have a garage sale but did not have time. I went through those boxes yesterday and today and all but 5 were for kids: Kid toys, kid movies, kid books, kid clothes. It was so awesome we have so much for the outreach now with more on the way from other people who have said they have something for the event. God blows my mind. So now we are going to have a kids clothes table and a kids book table and Movie Table so before each kid receives a toy parents can be getting other stuff for them. Oh God is so good. Glory to Him!!!

God's Wants me to do What?!?!?

It is a funny thing to be called by God. Not funny ha-ha but More ironic. God that creator of heaven and universe wants you to do something or be part of something. All of it is a faith walk and with each thing he wants you to do it is so big that you can not possible do it on your own. You do not have enough resources, wisdom, ability to pull it off, WHY? Because He wants to do it with you to show how Great he is. For example: God has recently shown me that he wants to have a community outreach: Free Toy Give-AWAY for the community. Every child that comes will receive a toy. There will be skits to be funny but also to teach about the Love of God. There will be balloon animals, and facepainting and other things to love on each child that comes.

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I can't do this. I don't know how to get toys, I don't know how to pull people together to do skits (I never did skits growing up) well not church skits. Okay there was this one maybe two but I am not a pro at this. I don't face paint, I can't do balloon animals and it is with my church so the rule for this "Big Project" is to make every minstry be apart of it in some way shape or form.

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And on top of all that I wanted to have it in December for a Christmas thing and to give me time to get it all together BUT NO God said he wanted it September 9th to get all the glory.

I thought June 5th was a faith walk. June 5th God showed me another community outreach. Everything from the beginning was against me. There was something already planned on that date, we didn't have enough food a few weeks before, it was going to rain and rain and rain. But you know what everything worked out. God stopped the rain, brought in the food, supplied the entertainment, the speakers, the cookers, the servers, the people to reach out and more. All taken care of.

Once again I am here again with empty hands but a willing heart. I know I am not the only one that goes through this. There maybe things God wants you to do that seem too big and too great for you to do. Which you are CORRECT but with God he will do it with you and me every step of the way. He wants to use you to show how awesome he is so others will give Him praise and honor.

He is truly an amazing God we serve and I am honored (and even Frightened at times) to serve HIm. He expects a lot but makes sure that it will be exactly how He wants it to be.

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I love God even in times like these!!!
Dess

Family Vacation 2011

Joel and God blessed me to be able to go and see my family for a month. I have had the best time seeing my parents, my sister, my brother, and nephews as well as friends and loved ones. It has been a time that I will never forget.

This is my last full day in the great northwest. Every time I come up to see my family I learn a little bit more about myself and why I am the way that I am. I have come to realize I am from a group of people that are very quiet, avoid conflict, and do not rock the boat. And yes I can be loud and crazy but for the most part but I hate the boat being rocked and I despise conflict. Which gives me greater insight on why I am the way I am and see why it is so hard to change in some of these ways that God is asking me to change.

I have had the most wonderful time with my oldest sister Tammie though youare 12 years apart people ask us which one is older. UG really. She has two kids, one is in high school and has been married since I was 12. LOL I guess I will appreciate our young genes when I get older. But as of now a little anoyed that Tammie can pass for my younger sister.

My nephews have my heart. I think I was suckered in on the day they were born. Christopher is wild and crazy and says 20 jokes an hour. He likes to make people laugh and be goofy. He is more like my dad than any one I know. He makes me smile even when I don't want to. Dean is quiet and some times will not open his mouth when you want him to but I adore him like no other and wish I could spend every day with him. It is these two that is hardest to say goodbye to. It is these two that makes me want to cry with the thought of leaving this place.

My parents will always be my parents. There is no denying that. I look and talk like them even when I don't want to. I see my self more and more in them and realize that even though I do not spend a lot of time with them since leaving college I will still act and talk like them until the day I die. I was running to find a friend of mine in the school parking lot and a lady I have never seen before in my life stopped me dead in my tracks when she said "Your a Wendle girl aren't you." "yes yes I am how did you know" "Oh you look and act just like your sister Tammie" I adore my parents. I know they were hand picked just for me. I am who I am today because God placed me in their lives. He made the right choice and for this I am forever grateful.

My friends I grew up with have influenced my life too. They are the bright and beautiful in this life I live. Casey and I met up and ate out. We were laughing so hard I thought they were going to through us out for disturbing the peace. She is goofy and fun and yet hates conflict and rocking the boat as much as I do. Missy is the serious one that still makes me laugh and cry. I love her and her husband and cherish their friendships.

And last (though if I for got to mention you please know you are much loved and adored by me.) Scott and Shallan. They have come to mean so much more than a friday night card game duo. They are ones I look so forward to seeing and catching up with. Shallan spoke life into me that needed a new breath of fresh air. "Me Too" will always be a new concept to me from Shallan and Tammie.

Goodness I have had the most blessed time being here. I thank God and everyone for making it so wonderful. May the Lord bless you indeed for your kindness and love to me.

With all my love,
Dess