I have started reading the Power of a Praying wife. And though most of the book is praying for your husband I find myself praying for me and Joel. The first chapter talks directly to the wife and to pray for yourself. I have now started praying that prayer every day. And when I don't I see myself get more irritated, more annoyed, and more responding in the flesh. For a long time I thought Joel had been the one who was in the wrong for stupid little things but now I see it is me and I need prayer more than anything.
Relationships have been hard too. And work and everything else that involves my life or is in direct contact with my life. Right now prayer is the only answer and it is helping big time. SO I haven't been as talkative lately and haven't been responding normal lately but it is just the season I am in. The season of prayer and of war.
There is a man that has been on fire for the Lord through the food ministry at his church and for the children's ministry. Everyone loves him. About two months ago he had a whole family move in with him and his family. The bills went sky high and they weren't making ends meet. When the family left because they found a place our Friend was hurting because of all the bills. Then the Lord provided 800 dollars. Our Friend praised God and cried and gave his Testimony. But then a week later the worries of his bills gave in again and he decided to leave for 3 months to go get a job 6 hours away that would pay his bills. It left a huge void in the food ministry and the children's ministry. Now he is talking about moving his whole family to where he is and leaving his church God has called him too. My heart breaks. For he has the fatherly instincts to provide for his family but He doesn't see that God is his ultimate Father and He will take care of our friend. That times seem tough now but God is there and is pleased with him and that this is the enemy's trap for getting away from what God has called him to do.
My Heart Breaks. Father God we need you. Lord help us to know that you will take care of us. That even when things look bad you have our back. Help us to know that we will never be an adult to you but always your child and that as YOUR child you take care of our food and shelter and every other need and even wants we have. Lord help us. We need you, we love You, change us. IN Jesus Name Amen.
Love you guys. Never stop worshiping Him for He takes care of all!!!
