Thursday, August 16, 2007

Pure Gold for Jesus!!!

The saying is true that you should be careful what you ask/hope/pray for you might just get it. (in my case I prayed and got what I wanted but not in the way I thought it would come)

So God has seemed very distant lately. I blamed myself mostly. I mean there is only two things that can keep us at a distant with God.

1) Ourselves. We can get distracted, our thoughts can be so horrible it can keep us from the presense of God, our actions, so you get the point

2) Then there is God. Some times or as Kippin likes to say some "Seasons" God will draw back from us to grow. Kind of like when you are learning how to ride a bike. My Dad would hold the bike while I was peddling and at one point he let go so I could learn on my own how to ride the thing. I freaked out and nearly wrecked when I found out he wasn't holding my bike any longer. Some times God will let Go so that we can walk out whatever the thing is in our lives to grow more.

Well lately I have been crying out for more of My heavenly Father. He has just felt so far away. So dry. Even when I worship with music I don't feel his presense.

My First reaction is to blame myself and I would say for the most part it has been my (Dad butler saying) "Stinkin THINKIN" I have been moody with my thoughts and complaining. Goodness. I am like the Israelites in the desert. Complain complain complain. As Joyce Meyer's would say. Complain and Remain. Praise and Be Raised. SO true. Sounds like it is so nerd thing to say but I can't tell you how true that is.

So things have been hard with Joel and I. Who knows why, it just has. But it has brought me to my knees. I casted my cares on Jesus. My Marriage, my dreams of marriage, and I casted Joel. For it takes two but I can't control Joel and he can't control me. So just to give my marraige over to Christ instead of me trying to take the wheel and screw up. So Here Lord I give it to you.

Also it has been hard at the warehouse. People are offended here. There is nothing we can really do about it but again it is to my knees these situations bring. I take it to the cross where Jesus conquered all. You know some times I don't feel like "more than a conquerer" but we are. That is what the bible says so it must be true and it is true. Again I cast my cares on you father God for you care for me.

Then there is interpersonal communication. (aka interaction with other people) Yikes again more casting it to God. Giving him my thoughts and actions. Praying he would help me put all my thoughts under CHrist control so I do not screw up my mood.

Because this is how it goes. You first have your thoughts. Which create an emotion which then lead to a behavior then the results.

So 1) Thoughts 2) emotion 3) behavior 4) results. Well I made the 4th one up I forgot what I was taught but the first three are true. SO inorder to put my actions pleasing to God I must first commit my thoughts to God. Then the rest will follow.

So things are hard here lately but I praise God they are because for the first time in who knows how long I feel closer to God. On Tuesday I went to church and for the first time in a long time when we worshipped with Music I could feel the presense of God again. So I do thank him for Trials. They aren't fun but they are worth all the Gold in the world for that is what happens when the refining fire (Jesus) comes, it makes us into pure gold for Him.

Turning into Pure Gold for Jesus,
Dess

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Just wanted to Check in

Hey Ya'll,

Things here are really good. It is only the beginning of the week and we have 5 pallets of Pomagranet Juice, 1 pallet of artichokes, 1 pallet of radishes and 3 tri-wall boxes of plums. Tomorrow are getting 3 to 4 pallets of Yogurt.

This is exciting. To get all this free food to give it freely to the churches so they can freely give it to those in need and share Christ love. I love it.

But you know there is a downer (some of the time) Because I want to be the one praying with people and giving the food to those that need it and making sure I am Kingdom building. But that is not what JOel and I are called to do (at this moment) So we pray and trust that the churches are not just giving food out but are praying and loving on the unloveable. Those that have been rejected by society. Or just those that are in need in this season in their life. That aren't rejects but have hit a few bumps on this road called life which God has given to us as a free gift.

And who knows when we have our own food ministry that we won't have a group of our own volunteers go out and pass out food as well as other groups or organizations or individuals passing out food. You never know. IT has been in my thoughts that we could have people from around the area from different churches be trained by us and they would be considered "our" volunteers who would go out and show the love of Christ but would also invite them to their church as well. It is just a thought. Whether it is my own thoughts or a promting from the Holy Spirit, I don't know. Because the Holy Spirit does give us ideas at times. So that we might do good work for Christ which has been planned ahead of time for us to do. (paraphrase to the max, but you get the point)

YOu know I am learning more and more that there are three factors to our thinking. There is us (of course) there is God giving us thoughts, and there is Satan. Some times we don't know if it is God's doing or Satans doing until time has passed.

For an example parable whatever to help get your mind wrapped around what I am saying. Lets say I am trying to get pregnant (Which I am not, please keep in mind this is an example and not my life) So lets say I am trying to get pregnant. One day I get sick. I throw up. And I keep throwing up. I start to think am I sick or am I pregnant. Only time will tell. Same with God and Satan at times. Because Satan does mimick God . . . .. . . A LOT. Is this God or is this Satan. SO any way. I am just rambling but this is what I have been thinking about lately.

Well that is it from me. It is not much. But there is not much going on.
Be Blessed My Friends and Fam.
Dess

Friday, July 27, 2007

Has it been Since May 18th, GOODNESS

So it really has been too long since we have blogged. For one thing I have talked myself out of blogging too many times using the excuse that no one is going to look any more since we haven't blogged in forever. But then one of our good friends told us he still looks to see if we have written on our blog. So this is for you man and for those that are faithful and still look at our blog.

Yeah it has been three months and everything and nothing has happened. So where do I begin. Well the food ministry has been awesome and frustrating. It has been awesome because we are getting in more food per week and have accepted more churches to come and pick up from us. Frustrating because I feel dry and redundent in my prayers every week that we pray with each group that comes and picks up from us. I almost feel like I am not doing my job since it feels like the same prayer every week. I need a refreshing in my spirit. I need God to fill my cup to overflowing. I need a good blast and filling of the Holy Spirit. I just need more of God and less of me. CAN I GET AN AMEN!!!

So our pets are growing up. They are so cute. Dynamite is only three months and he is well over 20 lbs. The kitties are growing up as well but no where near as fast as Dynamite and Dynamite thinks they are a chew toy. Poor kitties, but they take it like a man or uh cat. Then Ms. Bird well she just wants love and attention like any other cockatiel. (Don't know if I spelled that right)

So we have been picking up more and more, this week we had a total of 39,000 lbs. Just for this week. We picked up 6 pallets of Pomagranet/Blueberry Juice, 2 Pallets of Tomatoes, 2 Pallets of Mushrooms, 3 Pallets of Yogurt, Goodness that is just some stuff I can't remember all. It is such a blessing to have the churches Kingdom build. We are all just doing our part as the body of Christ.

I love driving my Truck. I feel like a big bad trucking Mama. WEll I can say that since I am not driving it at this moment. When I am on the road I pray like no other asking for protection. That God would protect me from reckless drivers and that God would protect other drivers from ME. Hehehehe.

Well it feels like in less than a year that Joel and I might be leaving. Can you beleive it. Now this is not in stone but we both feel it is coming down to the wire. Do we know where we are supposed to go. Not as of. There are plenty of things we could do but which one does God want us to do. What good work has God prepared ahead of time for us to do. That is the question. Joel and I are no longer our own. We don't get to chose where we live and where we work. Yes God has given us a free will and we can deny anything he has for us but we don't want to. And yes we can serve God in many ways but we both feel God has something or SOMETHINGS very specific for Joel and I. I especially feel that after Friend Ships I will start other food ministries. For the past 4 years I have been put in the food ministry and back in the food ministry over and over. Some times I TRIED to get out of it but I was always put back. And now doing the church aspect of it I love it even more. It is what I want to do for the rest of my life. What I feel God is preparing me here at Friend Ships to do now and later. BRING IT ON.

So what else. Well Joel and I were able to "JUMP SHIP" and suprise my mom and dad for their 40th anniversary. Both my sisters would be in the same area as my parents so my oldest sister flew Joel and I up just to suprise Mom and Dad and celebrate as a family. It has been about 2 years since all of us girls have been together. All my neices and nephews were there and both my sisters and brother in law. It was so much fun. I didn't want to leave. I am getting more and more close to my family. Which hasn't been, so Praise God what He is doing with my family.

So that is about it. We love all of you, sorry it has been so long. We are going to be writing more.

GOD's LOVE,
Dess

Friday, May 18, 2007

It's Been TOO long.

Hello Hello Hello,
I doubt any one is reading this any more. But you never know. I don't even know where we last ended. It has been crazy. We haven't been in the same place for more than a month since December.

So at the beginning of December Joel and I were supposed to go on vacation and see our families but things happened with the ship coming back from Israel so they flew Joel and I to the Canary Islands to meet the ship there and to help sail it back to Louisiana. We were at the Canary Islands for a week with the ship and then three weeks sailing. It was so hard and wonderful all at the same time. Hard because we were in vacation mode and then awesome because most of the crew on the ship were leaving Friend Ships right after the mission so we would not have been able to say good-bye had we been on vacation.

So we were sailing from December to January. Then From January to February we were asked to go to the Los Angeles Warehouse to take a look around and see if we wanted to stay at the warehouse perminatly. So for four weeks we stayed helped out and looked around and in the end felt it was where God was calling us next. So then we still needed to go on vacation.
That is when we drove back to Lousiana from California and then flew to Canada where we stayed with Joel's family for 4 weeks then 3 weeks with my family in Idaho/Washington. It was hard but restful and we were ready to conquer the world well the warehouse in LA.

So in April we were back in Louisiana got our Class B trucker license. Drove a big truck (not semi) to California. And have been here since the end of April beginning of May.
What an adventure eh? The funny thing is God gave me two words for my birthday. (I ask every year for God to give me a word for the year) This year it was Spontaneous Adventure. Hit that one right on the nose (But of course He did He is God)

It has been hard. Leaving our Friends and Family God provided for us the past 4 years in Louisiana. But we have stayed busy. We haven't had a weekend off since we got here. Which isn't any thing to brag about we have just been busy. The cool thing is God provided everything we needed to come down her to LA.

When we got married we didn't need anything because we lived on a ship and food was cooked for us, our laundery was done for us, and everything else a new couple starting off would need to do and have. So we recieved money instead. But it was always in the back of my mind. God some day we are going to need dishes and towels and all that other fun stuff that people start out with. Well you know what God provided once again. Should I be suprised, NO. But I am astonished how He provided. One of our best Friends Chuck and Janet had moved to Lake Charles and left everything in California so they had to buy all new things to live on. Dishes, towels, etc. Well they got everything from California to Lake Charles and they gave all their stuff they had bought in Louisiana to us. Just when we needed it. Then a friend of mine was moving from Houston back to Montana and she and her wonderful man gave us stuff we needed too. God is so awesome. He has been providing right and left. There are plenty of other testimonies but I might go into them later. Also people here are starting to get to know us and they have given us things we needed and we didn't even ask. There are days I just think and say hey we really need this and then Wam bam God provides it the next day or week with me not even asking. What an awesome God we serve.

I know this is long but there is more. SO at the warehouse we have stray Cats. Yikes they are making a mess. Pray that God will take care of them. So any way we found the first week we were here 3 kittensand then two days later we found 3 more. So we gave the latter 3 away and kept the first 3. Goodness. So we have 3 cats, one bird (that we brought with us from Louisiana, and one Dog that is a warehouse dog. Well two days ago we had a chance to get a puppy and guess what we did. Dynamite is his name and mutt is his game. Lame I know. SO we have a mutt named Dynamite who we want to train to come with us on our truck runs. I really want him to come to be a protector. I know God protects but I like having a big big dog with me. Did I mention Big he is going to be huge. His mom is half wolf half german shepard and his dad well I don't know what his dad is couldn't tell.

SO yeah that is our life in a nut shell. Crazy or what. Well there is so much more but that will be for another blog.

Love you all.
God is soooooooooooo good,
Dess

Thursday, February 08, 2007

All those sleepless nights

Hi Everybody!

Well, here i am, sleepless in L.A. again. I've been having a hard time sleeping at night lately. Now, i'm having a hard time falling asleep. I think it's partly due to excitement of the road ahead. We're about to journey back to Lake Charles and then on to our vacation in Canada and Washington/Idaho. So this has got my mind reeling. Also, i've gotta load that container starting tomorrow and i'm a bit nervous about it because i'm all alone and it's all up to me. Although in many cases, i'm glad to be alone because when i mess up (which i will) no one is around to see it :) Like today, i got a tire changed down the street at a mainly hispanic shop. They all spoke spanish and i felt a little foolish. I need to be more bold and try to put some of my 3 years of spanish from high school into action. But yeah, they changed the truck tire and i brought it back to the warehouse to put it back on the truck. When i was done reinstalling it, i stepped back from the truck and realized that i'd installed it the wrong way out. The large box truck looked like it had one "monster truck" wheel because it stuck out from the truck instead of being tucked away underneath it. I did have to get Dess to come and help me take it off and switch it around, so she's the only one who knows that i did it. Man i felt silly.

Honestly though, i do enjoy working alone. It gives me peace and a feeling of accomplishment because whatever i do in a day i know that i've done. Also, i get to be hands on with work again around here because there's no one to manage. I've been preparing pallets and cargo for the container to the Philippines, i replaced the tire on the truck, i've prepared and loaded some pallets into a container for Port Mercy and lots of other odds and ends. I'm having fun. One thing about working alone is that i've got time to think. Lately i've been finding that i've been getting attacked in my thoughts though. I've been having doubts, worries, frustrations and anxieties that i normally wouldn't. It keeps me praying and seeking out God during those times though.

I have had good times working with other people too you know. Just in case any of you are reading this blog and think i only like to work alone, it's not true. I've enjoyed working with people like Dan, Jason, Matt and others. I'd probably enjoy working with my Dad and brother too, but we don't have many opportunities for that these days. Work seems to be a good bonding experience for me. I enjoy learning from the knowledgeable and teaching the less knowledgeable.

I think i'm going to sign off for now and try to get to sleep again. I just gotta shut my brain down or something. Oh well, as long as i'm productive in my sleeplessness i guess it's all good.

signing off,

joel

Yeah Vacation Is almost here!!!

Hey Guys,
It has been too long!!! Too Long for Vacation coming, too long since seeing the family, too long since anything really.

Things in Los Angeles have been good but hard. I can see this is not going to be a cake walk like I thought it was going to be. But being an on fire for the Lord person for the past 4 years I have come to realize that the really good things GOd has for us are not easy to come by and the process, well as the bible puts it, a refining fire. YOu would think after being in one place for so long (example: Friend SHips) that you wouldn't have to go through a fire after soo much time. Yeah right I can see it coming now and even feel it these past 4 weeks. New enviorement + new people + new job = Fire. Didn't they teach you that in school.

SO yeah this is what I have always wanted to do since being part of the food minstry with Friend Ships. This is the big DOG. This is where the rubber meets the road. I am going to be in charge of the churches coming and getting food. Seeing if they are reaching the people, building the kingdom, and showing people CHrist. Praying with the churches. Making sure every group that receives food from us is prayed for. We are talking about having classes for those that don't know how to reach people for Christ with food. So this is what I have always wanted to do.

It is funny how God works because for so long when I was in the food ministry at Lake CHarles all I wanted to do was be apart of a huge food minstry. Every day I would think about it and kind of not be satisfied where I was at. But what happens BOOM!!!!! EXPLOSION . . .. I get satisfied where I am at, Thanking God where I am, and what does He do bring Joel and I to Los Angeles where I have always wanted to be. Funny how that works. But Praise GOd because He knows best.

So I am in the food ministry Joel is hands on in the warehouse shipping things to other countries for churches/organizations that want to help the poor or shipping items to Friend SHips in Lake Charles so that the warehouse can be fully on the food ministry.

So that is where we stand. But in the mean time Joel and I leave on vacation in a week and a half. We are so pumped. The awesome cool thing about this is that God is making the time ZOOOOOOOM by. I mean ZOOOMMMMMMMMM baby. Because Joel has to get a 40 foot container filled for the philippines by saturday. SO time is flying because we are on a schedule.

Yeah. SO this blog was kind of crazy because I am pumped what GOd is doing and where we are going to go for vacation.

Love you all. HOpe to hear from some of you who read our blog. Matt Craven you should at least comment once if you are still reading our blog. We would love to hear from any of you.

Blessings blessings from Christ,
Dess

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Back in Business

Hi Everybody,

Well, you may not be checking out our blog as regularly as you used to because we haven't been posting much. We've been moved out to L.A. as a part of Friend Ships and the computer is really old and the web server wouldn't let us use blogger for complicated reasons. So, we finally realized we could use Internet Explorer to post our blogs, so we're back!!!

All is well in our lives. As i mentioned, we're in Los Angeles for a little while. We've been here for 3 weeks and we've got 1 more week to go. From there we will be road tripping back to Lake Charles and then flying out of Houston to Canada for our much deserved and longed for vacation. 4 weeks of Canadian bliss and then 3 weeks of more relaxing in Washington with Dess' family. How exciting is that??? Very exciting!!! We can't wait.

This week is going to be a busy one for Dess and i. We've got a lot of work to do around the warehouse, cleaning up and preparing for filling a container which will be sent to the Philipines. We've also got meetings and the usual day to day stuff to do. It's so cool to realize that we'll be on vacation within 2 weeks.

For anyone in Canada who may be checking this blog and would be interesting in seeing us, drop us an email or make a comment and we'll be sure to get in touch. Home sweet home.

Okay, well, i can't write long right now, i just wanted to touch base. We'll try to get more in depth in our blogging... but no promises :)

joel