So Joel and I headed to our second journey of our vacation. When God released us from Friend Ships we felt a peace about taking 5 months off to rest and see family. We completed our time with my family which was sad and heart breaking to say the least. We had the best time with them. It was a direct blessing from God. There were few and far betweens moments where it wasn't absolutely fabulous.
But then came the transition. The point I wish we could have skipped all together. Well at least the part of giving up our dog or as I like to call him our first child. The Lord had put on our hearts 5 months ago that He wanted us to give up all of our pets. And God even had a couple in mind to give Dynamite to. So Joel and I drove from Idaho to Blacksburg Virginia to see friends that we had met at Friend Ships and to give our precious loved dog away to a young couple.
My heart broke. The idea of not having Dynamite was hard beyond description (unless you had been there). After 14 months of being with him, 24 hours a day 7 days a week except for a week and a half of him being away from us, we had to give Dynamite away.
I can't even tell you how bad my insides hurt. How much I had loved and cared for this living being. How much time and energy we had put into Dynamite and then completely giving him up. When we got to Virginia we had a few days with him all to ourselves. And each morning (around 4 or 6) The Lord would wake me up or my broken heart would wake me up. I was crushed. So all I could do was go to my heavenly Daddy and lay in his lap or hide under Him and just abide in the one that loves me more than anyone. It was during this pain and during spending time with my Daddy that I found a place I had never known before. A place where I could be fully in my fathers arms and feel no pain even in the midst of my deepest heart ache. It was incredible. I had been there before a few times but it wasn't to the point of my God taking away every once of my pain and sorrow. My Lord gave me such peace and such reassurance that this is where dynamite should be. That this was his home and that the couple (dan and mary) were perfect for him. That during those morning hours I spent with my Daddy and that it didn't hurt one bit.
I still cried and I still hurt with everything in me after wards but it was mixed with peace and joy that surpasses all understanding and all emotions. It was unbeleiveably hard and unbelieveably joyful all at the same time.
So the day came when Joel and I had to go to Dan and Mary's house and give dynamite over. I cried all morning. But my prayer was that I would not cry at Dan and Mary's house so that they would feel joyful and comfortable about taking dynamite. And my God my Daddy granted my prayer request.
Dan and Mary are so awesome. And I feel so blessed that they are so great and wonderful for Dynamite. One of the things that made me happy is that when Dynamite stands beside Dan they make each other look normal. Explanation: Anyone that knows Dynamite knows how tall he is. Everyone calls him a horse because of his height. Dan is so tall as well and that when they stand by each other they don't look above average in height. I knew, when driving away, that God had blessed us in having Dynamite for a time and during that time we were to prepare him for dan and mary (which we didn't know) And that God had created dymamite for Dan and Mary. Oh yes Joel and I learned a lot from Dynamite, but in the end he was for Dan and Mary.
So You may be asking why would God have me give away our Dog. Why would God take pleasure in what I went through. If he really is a loving God he would have never of asked us to give up dynamite. So many questions so many feelings so many hard times.
A lot of scriptures have run through my head during this time. One being from Job: "The Lord gives and the Lord Takes away, Blessed be the name of the Lord." I know there are seasons where the Lord gives gives gives or I also know that God gave us dynamite. I had be praying for a dog for a year before God provide the right time and the right Dog for us. I prayed for our dog to have floppy ears (Dynamite did) I prayed (this is weird but true) I prayed for God to give us a dog that was so beautiful that every time we went out or saw people they would comment on how beautiful he was (and it happened almost every time we were out) God is so good. I prayed for other things and God gave almost everything I wanted to us in Dynamite.
But I also know that God sees Joel's and my future. I also know that God is good and that He is trust worthy. I know that Joel and I have given over every part of our lives, that we are God's property, and that He will tell us where to go and what to do as He sees fit.
So from knowing these things and having peace about giving up dynamite though we can't see what is next (only God) I know that there is a huge reason for God not allowing us to take dynamite into our next step, whether it be that we won't have enough finances for us and him or that the next place God takes us won't allow dogs and or that Dynamite would have been miserable in the next place we go to. I know when I find out why God asked us to give him up I will be thanking him for it.
My God is so good that He provided a great home for Dynamite. My God is so great that He gave us the strength, guidance, peace, and joy to give dynamite away. Which if it would have been all up to me and on my strength I couldn't have done it. 2 months before giving dynamite away I kept asking God "How am I going to be able to give up Dynamite, How am I going to be able to give him up and walk away from something I have wanted for so long and love with all my heart now"
Man I love my God. He has been so good to me. So as Job said I will say too BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD!!!"
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