8 Things you never knew and might not want to know about Dess hehehe :)

Joel and I have searched DEEP within me to find 8 things. Here they are:

1) I am afraid of giving an excessive amount of change to a cashier. I actually go into a panick attack: turning bright red, stuttering with my words, heart starts beating really fast, etc. I don't know where I got the idea from but I always feel like the cashier is thinking I am a big pill for giving more than a dollars worth of change.
I see other people pull out a whole sack of change and count it out slowly while there is a huge line behind them and the cashier is getting impatient. Now being in the ministry there has been a few times they have sent me with a whole envelope of change to get stamps. I start prepping myself in line "I can do this, I can do this" But by the time I get up there I am like "I have my debit card on me I will just pay with that and by pass this embaressment"

2) My love Language is Words of Affirmation. When I first read the book The 5 love langauges and I was dating Joel I thought mine were Quality time and Physical Touch. But as time went on I learned that the less Joel gives me words of affirmation or kinds words of affirmation the more I decrease my physical touch and quality time.
One time I was having a hard time with a person who had ripped me in two with words she spoke over me. I prayed asking God way did I let her words get me down so bad. He brought me to Proverbs where it said: In the Tongue are life and death and those that love it will eat of it's fruit (something like that I don't have the bible right in front of me) But God showed me since my love language is Words of Affirmation that no matter if a person speaks goodness over me or horrible things I will eat its fruit and take it more to heart than a person whos love language is physical touch or quality time.

3) I am an extremist. I am either on one side of the spectrum or the other. I do not have any shades of gray. I am either hyper or barely mobile. Hard worker or Lazy. Example: For about 2 years Joel and I have been mindless with our money. We don't have bills, we don't buy our own food, we pretty much don't live in the real world so no need for a budget. But we started praying and God showed us in about a year we would be leaving Friend Ships so we needed to start saving our money. I went from not caring about our money to saving every penny. I am not kidding. When I would be walking outside I would look for change on the road or in pop machines. This got pretty excessive and God put me in my place and said I am not going to provide for you through pennies, dimes, nickles, and quarters. I am going to REALLY take care of you. This stopped me from looking for change. I still am pinching dollars though. :)

4) I am a food magnet. Do not sit by me or around me during a meal if you want to stay clean. I am blessed or cursed (dont' know which one yet) to always walk away from a meal with food on me or on others around me. One time I had spilled a lot of Ranch Dressing on the table. (I was proud that I didn't get it on me or any one else) So I got a napkin. Put the napkin at the tables edge where I was going to scoop the ranch into. Some how I missed the napkin completely and got all of it on Joel, who had just taken a shower and had clean clothes on. BEWARE all you who sit by me.

5) I struggle with letting my imperfection for God get me down. I hate messing up when it comes to God. I beat my self up terribly. Even on the things I am ignorant about but especially on things that I know better. When I do mess up I ask for forgivenes but then I find it hard to pray as if I can't look up at God to talk. Like a child with its head down while talking to the parent after making a big mistake. I pray this will go away before I get to the other side of Glory.

6) (Getting a little more serious now) The last guy I dated before Joel I had a lot of problems with his Family. Mother and Siblings. So I get very nervous and even freaked out being around Joels family. With Casey family (the guy I dated) it was so hard. I would cry every time I would be in their presents. On time behind my back his mom and dad tried to get Casey to date other girls. One of his sisters lied to his parents about me. Said some pretty horrible things. His oldest sister (who I thought had my back) wrote a horrible email about me to Casey. I loved his family very much. They meant a lot to me. It was hard not being excepted by them. If I were to see any of them today I would get pumped and excited to see them. But for his parents I wasn't LDS (or mormon) so I would never truly be excepted. I was best friends with his one sister but that turned out horrible. With the other siblings they believed lies from his sister who was my best friend and therefore the siblings didn't always like me.

7) I have come to the conclusion and the opinion that mirrors are not just for vanity. I have believed for a long time that mirrors were just to look at yourself/stare at yourself/reflect (as my dad would call it). Until one day I was out with a friend outside at Port Mercy and some one came by about ready to through away a mirror. My Friend Sarah said "hey Dess do you want it" I go "Oh no thanks I have enough and they are just for vanity reasons. " She was like no they are not I was like yes they are. She then said " what if you have a booger and you need a mirror to show you." I then said well "I have you who I know would tell me and I know Joel would tell me so there you go. I don't need a mirror." That was that.
Later on I had a late lunch that day so I wasn't with Joel and I ate a huge hamburger with lots of Ketchup. After lunch I went to do a few errands for the ministry. When I got in the car I looked in the mirror and there on my cheek was a huge smear of Ketchup. I had just come from the office and had been all through the office and none of the ladies had said any thing. After that I knew that mirrors are not just for vanity.

8) My grandmother was born in Canada. She was still a US citizen some how. But CANADA is in her blood therefore mine. I know I rip on Canada only for the purpose of bugging Joel but some where deep in my blood I have canada flowing through.

That is it. 8 Things you know about me and may never of wanted to.

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