Relief

Hello Everyone,

Usually I like doing pictures with mine but we don't have any new ones so I will just go without.

I am so relieved. You don't even know. Things here have been so hard. I feel like I have been crying every day. (Joel probably feels it is even more than that if that is possible) I have been having bad feelings about everything. You name it. Except Joel. He is a great man. Mom and Dad Butler you did an awesome JOB with raising this Man. I am one blessed woman.

Any way. I have been hating my job, Friend Ships, church, work time, off time, you name it I have been hating it. So I have been praying (Thank you for your prayers they have really helped) and praying and praying and praying. Small things would come and help for a little bit (more like five minutes) then I would be back to bawling. So as a human I tried to blame everything. Bosses, job, God, Satan, me, Joel, life. This morning God gave me a break through. I went to the throne room to be with the Holy Spirit, Jesus, and God. They revealed to me I was under major spiritual attack but it is for my own good. That Jesus is with me. He has my front back sides up down. You name it He has got my "back" and more. He told me if He had not gotten my back then I would be destroyed. So this has made everything so much better. I realize that it is not my job or life or anything else but it is the enemy who wants to rob, kill, and destroy. I read ephesians today about the armor of God. God made me realize I need to get DEEPER in to the word. SO I started at Gensis and will go from there.

Thank you for all your prayers I have been a mess. I am glad Joel promised for better or for WORSE. Because it has been bad. I even laugh at my out of mind experiences these past few weeks.

I love you guys so much. Just wanted to give you an update on what was going on. Have a blessed day.

Just Remeber Jesus has your back front side side up and down so don't lose hope.

Jesus Freak,
Dess